As of yesterday, I said good bye to my entire family. Only my biological father and his mother (my beloved Babcia) have decided to support me in my decision to be my own person, and to love who I love freely.

Essentially, my sister told my parents that I'm gay, they flipped a shit, told me I was coming home at semester to attend community college and get into 'ex-gay' counseling or whatever the fuck it is. I have yet to reply to them, mostly because I'm still in shock, but I will no longer be in their lives, and they will stop funding for college.

It hurts though. I am not suicidal, so get that out of your heads, but I'm in a lot of pain right now. My eyes have turned green from the simple sorrow of crying for 12 hours.

Lee has been incredibly supportive of me. My Babcia is signing up to join PFLAG, my Da is willing to help pay for college, any way he can. I haven't told my biological mother, or her side of the family, because I don't know if I can handle any more rejection after this. I think I'm going to call her though. She needs to hear this from me, face to face. The only problem is, my biological grandmother will be upset, and the whole religious, but with good intentions, biological maternal side will pray for my eternal soul. Don't waste your breath, I'm in love, and I have no intention of 'changing sides' simply because a distant god wants me to. He can shove it.

I really don't know what is going to happen to me. Please, keep me in your thoughts.

Should you need my number, just message me. Thank you.

Melody